Wednesday, February 18, 2009

I can't help but think of mom and where she is at right now. I am so grateful for the gospel in my life. What a terrible time this would be if we didn't know we could be reunited with her again or to know that she is happy and her Spirit is alive carrying on the work on the other side. She is pain free and I know she is happy greeting and reacquainting herself with parents, grandparents, friends, and family. I can picture her smiling, laughing, and walking around trying to find all those she has done genealogy work for, or find her scripture heroes, and ancestors to thank them for paving the way. She's probably trying to find out where she can sign up for the heavenly host angel choir! I think she has probably been embraced by the Savior and has been told "Well done, thou good and faithful servant." Mom lived a full, rich, life blessing all those she knew. She will be missed, but because of the plan of salvation we will see her and be in her presence again!
Sunday Feb. 22
Viewing 6pm-8pm
Pima Stake Center

Monday Feb. 23:
Viewing 9 am
Funeral Services 10 am
Pima Stake Center

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Our prayers have been answered. Mom has returned home to our Heavenly Father. We are so grateful her pain and suffering has ended. She is having a joyous reunion with her Mother, Daddy and all those who have gone before.

Monday, February 16, 2009

I've never said this before, but mom is doing terrible. She truly is. She moans and groans and we know she is in pain. We have been giving her more break through morphine. It's liquid so we can put it in her cheek. She's having problems sleeping due to her pain. She won't swallow her pills anymore and she has a cough. Her breathing is getting shallow too. It has been hard on all of us to see her this way. Please keep praying for her to be comfortable.

Happy Birthday Dad!

Yesterday was Dad's birthday. The big 67! We all pitched in to buy him a garmin. (GPS system for the van) We know he can definitely find a use for it! After singing and opening the present we had yummy apple pie that Malia had bough at Costco on the way from Yuma.

Oops I put the pictures from last to first!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

After mom hibernated all day yesterday, Malia and Kuliana took the risk of not giving mom a sleeping pill. They were lucky. . .she slept all through the night! She woke up at 8am and was thirsty. She had to make up from fasting all day yesterday and she drank away. She has had no problem drinking from a straw today. When Kuliana asked mom this morning if she knew what day it was she said clearly "dad's birthday." Malia had mentioned it earlier, but mom knew when Kuliana asked later on. Kuliana and Malia sang Happy Birthday to Dad this morning and mom sang along singing the tune, but with her own words. Dad cried and gave mom a kiss. She then kept singing for 15 minutes.

Kuliana is going to be here all week and Malia until tomorrow. Leilani and Bam are flying in on Friday morning. Mom is lucky to have so many children that love her and want to help take care of her!

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Mom really didn't wake up for the day today. We tried at 11 am to wake mom. We opened the curtains to let in the bright light and she didn't even flinch! We wanted to get her awake enough to swallow a morphine. We don't want her in any pain. Anything we did she couldn't keep her eyes awake for longer than 30 seconds. After trying for a while we got her to open her eyes long enough to put a straw in her mouth, but she wouldn't suck up any water. It's a chore for her to swallow. It is very difficult and she just doesn't want to do it anymore. Her tongue is very dry and we try to moisten it with all the moisturizers the nurses have given us. Dad ended up giving mom liquid break though morphine. Mom continued to sleep all day while the rest of us prepared for Alani's and Raely's baptism. Mom was still sleeping when we got home almost at 5pm. She woke up long enough for Alani and Raely to sing a baptism song that mom wrote for Malia more than 20 years ago! She grinned and said I'm eight. Mom wasn't responding to any of us today except for the grandkids. When Raely and Ashton came in to say hi she perked right up and gave them a smile.

Although mom has been progressively getting worse, I haven't felt her start to slip away until today. To see the vacancy in her eyes and her expressionless face has just hit home to me that this is real. This is the first time she hasn't been able to tell me hi after I tell her hi. That made me ache inside to be able to talk to her again. It pains me to see her this way.